Good morning dear friends. Thank you so much for all of your love, prayers, and support. They mean so much. I am sending (hugs) back to all of you.
Jenn, I'm so sorry to hear that Brooke, Claire & Sarah go through something similar to what I did. It's just so tough and hurtful ... but I'm so glad that they have you and Sean to support them, encourage them, and most of all, to love them unconditionally. (Hugs)
I slept much better last night than I did the night before, so that definitely helps. I'm still struggling with feelings of grief, regret, anger, hurt, and rejection ... but I know this is a process, and it will take me time to work through all of my emotions and the baggage related to them. Related to that, I made an appointment for just after Spring Break (03-31) to have an initial visit w/ a Christian counselor. If I like him, then I'll suggest that Dad consider going to.
At the conference Sat., one of the video speakers was Lysa Terkeurst, who mentioned as a side note in her talk, that she'd just released a book about turning to God when you feel rejected and hurt. I thought, "Hmm, that sounds interesting," and I ordered a copy on Amazon. It arrived yesterday. Talk about how God knew what I'd need, days before I did.
Jade & Bear have today off school, but Amber still has preschool. I need to get DKs fed, pack/get Amber ready, then back home. If I'm feeling up to it, I have at least 2 work items I really need to tackle today, and DH & I are meeting a potential client tonight. I think that should be OK as DH will do the bulk of the talking. My Dad & DH's uncle are taking DKs to the zoo this afternoon, so that will also give me extra time to rest, decompress, and do whatever I need.